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you will forget to be 
aware, 
unselfish, and 
thoughtful, 
and it will hurt me at times, 
but i will still be here, 
loving you 
softly
consistently,
anyways. 
you will think only of yourself 
too many times to count, 
because  it
doesn't exactly come naturally 
to step outside 
yourself 
and i will still be here, 
quietly teaching you 
without using words. 
i will get weary. 
tired of getting stepped on, 
taken advantaged of, 
even manipulated at times, 
but because of the Lord's great love, 
i will not be consumed
and i will continue to love, 
to pour out, 
and watch as He transforms you. 
you will leave your kids at my house, 
expecting me to watch them 
and feed them, without 
a second thought. 
you will let your insecurity 
cloud your judgement 
and you will hold me at a distance 
in your fearful suspicion 
even though i have dealt 
with you  only
with sound character 
time and time again. 
you have nothing to fear with me. 
by His grace, 
you can trust me. 
i love you,
in your weakness, 
in your darkest, 
i love you.
 when you walk in flesh 
and not in spirit
i love you. 
i am here. 
i love you not with a human love.
that is too little at times. 
i love you with a Christ love, 
sweeping, 
unconditional,
and persistent. 
i do not point a finger at you, 
rather i point to Christ 
and i ask you to follow Him 
alongside me. 
this friendship is not without 
its hurts, 
its conflicts, 
it's storms, 
but we will weather it, 
for we are in it for the 
long haul. 
my prayer is that He continues to 
soften you with His love, 
that you will recognize 
He rejoices over you with singing. 
you can leave the 
striving, 
the performing, 
the need to be perfect 
at the foot of the cross. 
there is no room for insecurity, 
fear, 
and pride. 
[i preach first to myself]
you can be free to be loved by Him 
and love Him in return. 
that is my consistent prayer 
for you, sweet friend. 
i how you will push against 
this, it is foreign to you, 
and you are afraid to 
trust it. 
i assure you, 
you can. 
i know you know 
of him, 
but do you 
know him?
i want to be here to keep 
directing you to Him,
so someday, 
you yield good fruit,
and you flourish like a palm tree..
i am here. 
i love you at your darkest, 
and i will rejoice as you 
make your way into 
the 
Light..