an honest prayer

i forgot that 
cleaning is an act of 
worship
a humble offer of praise 
to a God full of 
loving kindness.
i forget that He draws close to me
as i am bringing shalom into 
chaos,
restoring order in my home. 
it has been too long. 
i am so sorry Jesus. 
i love you 
and haven't pursued You at all. 
i have been consumed with 
myself 
it makes me sick to 
speak it
but that is where confession ends
and healing begins. 
i desire to honor and serve You 
with my life
with my actions
i confess self centeredness 
and complacency. 
i fix my eyes on You, 
and You alone.
remove laziness, 
despondency, 
and indifference. 
give me a softened heart made
small.
broken and contrite. 
i want You and You alone.
i love you. 

clean out my heart 
as we clean the house
together. 

amen.