i guess 
some writing is meant to be 
written 
in order to pull it out 
of the darker parts of 
me 
to expose the mean and unkind parts of 
me 
so i can't hide behind them 
if the words are just staring me 
black and unblinking. 
it's not a part of the writing that 
i'm proud of, 
but hopefully after it's out 
it does a kneading number on me 
and makes the harsher parts of me 
smaller 
and the softer parts of me 
bigger.
so i will pull good and hard 
on the writing that makes me cringe 
and ill put it away in a drawer 
somewhere 
but at least it's outside my body 
and no one will be harmed
upon reading 
and i will still have  my 
softness
in tact.