pregnancy chronicles

the usual pregnancy symptoms
that arrive early into the second trimester and on:

restless leg syndrome-my right foot shakes like a 
dog itching behind his ear for ticks, like clockwork, 
it convulses every.single.night starting at 11:30pm 

sciatic nerve-this cripples me at times, even paralyzes in 
its stunning pain, imagine a messy ball of muscles and nerves
all scraping against one another, shooting its way from my 
hip, buttox, and down my leg. 

insomnia-how can anyone sleep with a protruding stomach that 
punches and pushes and shoves at all hours if the night, 
a crazy snazzy leg, and aches and pains all over the place?
sigh. perhaps i'll find sleep when all my children 
move out. 

pounding head aches-i don't want to say i know what a migraine feels like 
because i don't want to undermine friends who really have experienced them..
but i imagine these head aches are close. my head splits in thunderous pain, i can't see, 
i can't think. i feel sick, throw up-ee, and i just want to hide in a very dark and quiet place. 

acid reflux-where the heck did the lava flow come from and lodge itself in my throat?
fire and brimstone, burning inflammation..i wouldn't wish this on anyone..
tums are now my favorite candy at the moment. not. i just need relief!

pregnancy is so weird. and yet, we forget all of this, 
all of the crusty suffering that comes with growing a child in the womb 
for 9 months, and our hearts grow and grow, 
and it swells in the best way as soon as that little one is 
in our arms. 

i want you to know, ari. you are worth it. 
you are so worth it. 
i love you and i am excited to meet you.
and maybe stop getting kicked in the stomach..

14 weeks till delivery..


:)