Tuesday, January 13, 2015

shortcomings.

well guess what
I've got white bald patches
and a receding hair line in some places,
my stomach resembles 
an old sponge with laffy taffy stretch marks
strewn all over it.
My eye balls are on their way 
to being stuck together, 
one of them is clouded in 
pool cleaner scars.
just a pile of walking imperfections
and while we're at it
my socks never match
my fingernails are never clean,
and if I'm honest
most days my hair
makes Vaseline jealous
With its natural greasy shine.
I've got plenty to be insecure about,
plenty of defects to groan over
but I'm just trying to forget those things
because really they aren't as 
important or relevant
as how Holy God is
and learning about His
great love.
And boy, is it great.
How does a perfectly 
beautiful Creator
love a girl who rubs her nose so hard 
that it is steadily growing lopsided?
Why does he take the time to
pursue a girl who trips over her words in public 
and doesn't get out of bed 
some days?
Because none of that matters to Him.
When he looks at me
[i am made low that he would even do so]
He sees me 
without blemish
he sees a beauty that He Created
And he has covered my infirmities 
in a clean white cloak of grace.
I talk too loud sometimes
and get myself in trouble 
blurting out words 
before my discernment filter 
kicks on-
He quiets me with His love,
rejoices over me 
with singing
and I have naught to offer
but my feeble hands
empty.
waiting for him to fill
with his goodness.
I've got jowls 
hanging from my cheeks
and I've got a little too much 
extra insulation 
in my hips
yet He the universe holder
has entered into a solemn covenant 
with insignificant me
and claimed me 
as his.
forget me.
forget myself.
forget all the 
shortcomings
 see shouting in 
that warped 
mirror
and let me stop.
may Him and 
Him alone 
be 
praised.

2 comments:

chelsmichalwrites said...

everyone else just sees hotness so..

J.K. English said...

thanks chels. i know the real story and i'm sure you know it too..:)