"you are.
an inspiration,"
he choked.
the air conditioner hummed
quietly behind us.
"your heart of immense gratitude,
the ability you have to see
everything-"
he is weeping now-
"as a gift,
does not go
unnoticed."
the green of my leaves
begin to slowly uncurl,
his words and tears streaming steadily now
dropping on my green,
we sat there,
everything wet and glistening.
i had never been spoken to
so sincerely by my father.
not like this.
his heart like a hat in
his hands.
the words tumbled from his
mouth,
his shoulders,
always strong, always upright,
now shook and the avalanche
began to give way.
it was as if he felt the urgency to speak all the things
he had never taken the time to,
he would not miss that opportunity-
not this time.
for that moment,
i felt truly seen,
nothing else in his line of vision,
but little me,
my tender vine growing
by the second.
instead of shielding myself,
bracing against what would come,
i opened my little plush petals,
pulled back my
protective coverings,
shook off the dirt down to my roots,
and let the rain come.
i allowed the kind,
gracious words,
along with the tears of honey
to wash over me.
i drank drank, drank,
as fast as i could
as he encouraged, affirmed, and
turned his
powerful eye to me.
i adore my father. i do.
but i would never demand or expect
this gift
he has given me,
the words of living water,
i did not realize how thirsty
i was.
to see my father,
weak with weeping,
flowing with words that had no gate keeper,
no reservations,
i have seen nothing like this.
what a precious gift i will never forget
and will cherish forever.
he loves me.
he looks up
to me.
he adores me.
is quietly learning
from me.
i am speechless with humility,
and my leaves,
my stem,
my roots,
have all been strengthened and renewed.
i have never been
more green.
i love you dad.
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