sit on the edge of the bed,
the air outside dark,
thick, and quiet,
the heavy fog still on the prowl
i try and shove my boobs
into a black sports bra and pull on
a pair of tropical shorts.
i approach the treadmill.
nathan slides out of the warm space
next to me,
slipping on his shoes,
tying the strings by memory,
eyes just opening.
he steps out into the fog.
6:00 am:
i finish up with toting my
i finish up with toting my
neon yellow weights,
up over my head,
up over my head,
down below my knees,
the air squeaks from my lungs
just barely escaping,
I'm heaving, but i don't stop.
until now.
the baby shuffles around my body,
eating bits of paper and whatever else
he can get his hands on.
he normally doesn't wake up
this early,
but one of us dropped the toilet seat
[i won't say who]
a little too loudly,
and baby was
and baby was
catapulted out of
reverie.
[it wasn't me.]
oh well. we adjust.
6:15 am:
the smell of coffee brewing slowly
the smell of coffee brewing slowly
methodically,
the aeropress doing its part in
easing us into our morning,
nathan slips quickly behind the shower
curtain.
i do not shower, only roll on the
deodorant, shed the work out clothes,
and put on some shorts i found
that slide down when I'm just standing there.
they will have to do.
i scrub my face,
empty out the overflowing trash can
from beneath the bathroom sink,
straighten the towels and rug,
calling it good with a few coats of mascara.
6:45 am:
nathan and i meet at the couch,
nathan and i meet at the couch,
the air conditioner hums,
the lights off throughout the house
except for the little space we take
on the couch has a lamp to
keep us company.
baby still awake, but ready to cuddle,
he rubs his eyes and nestles into my
chest.
this is my favorite time.
we sip our hot fresh coffee,
we talk, we look each other in the eye,
there are few interruptions,
and there is time.
my husband reads the Word
aloud,
it feels like cleansing rain falling steadily
on me. or is it oil.
i don't know but it
does well for my soul.
we pray together,
our hands laced together.
this is sacred and set apart.
it is this small window in time
that i have
never in my life
never in my life
peeked into,
and now here,
we are,
we are,
resting inside this world
i've never been a part of,
waking up before the sun rises,
it's like a gift of extra time
that i've never used before.
it was just sitting there that
whole time,
a whole village of
early mornings
but no one was living there.
i have visited once or twice,
but now i want to stay.
put down roots in the
birth of the day,
i am seeing what it could be,
what it has become.
7:20a:
it's time to gently wake up the kids
for school..
7:20a:
it's time to gently wake up the kids
for school..
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